Monday, June 29, 2009

gah! update! sorry!

i am sooooooo sorry guys!
bleeeeehlksdfjhkjdshf!

i've been pretty busy as of late. let's see....to begin with:
school ended. summer started. now single. helped with a photo shoot. made some vlogs with my friend anthony. made a trailer for a new mini-series with anthony. went to the renaissance fair both days. the first day it was anthony, desi, my sister, and me. the second day it was just anthony and me. i bought stuff for my sister and my dad. drank some orgasmic root beer. got my palm read. watched belly dancer, jousting, acting, people sing and play instruments, i dressed up (for the first day at least), ate great food, aaaaand....yeah. woot woot!

in other news, my friend alex is coming from montana today!!!! oooooohhhhh meeeeeehhhhh gaaaaaaahhhhhhd! lmao. i haven't seen her for over a year, and i usually get to see her at least 2-3 times a year. so i'm pretty fricken excited. this also means that i can finally give her her christmas presents -.- lmao. she was supposed to come over for christmas but couldn't because the passes were closed. stupid snow D:

what else......hmmmm.....
i'm not sure really. i guess i'll just have to update more later.
well, until next time my little lovelies!!!!



bai bai
-ashlyn



p.s. pictures from the fair:





Sunday, June 14, 2009

some writing

did i do something wrong? did i? i didn't mean to, if so. i'm sorry. or maybe you've done something wrong. have you? it would explain the ignorance of my existence. the guilt overwhelming you, every time you see me. but, you see, you haven't done anything wrong. and neither have i. so what's going on? where have you gone? i know you're not far, but you're definitely not as near as my heart requires for comfort.

you know, i think i'm going to go search for you. maybe i'll find you in the depths of my mind, sitting in a corner, playing a guitar. that would explain the song i have stuff in my head that reminds me so much of you.

and suddenly, the music stops. it seems as though you've moved on. is it true? have you moved on? it would explain the emptiness in my heart. you never did give me a 20 day's notice of your leaving.

now i'm walking through my heart, seeing what you may have left behind. it seems that you only took what you could carry. it hurts to see that you left in such a hurry. guess i'll begin cleaning things up. i'm not sure i can fix these holes though. i can't handle the sight of the damage you've made. i lie on the floor, tears and blood seeping through the holes. i drown in my sorrow.finally, i open my eyes. i'm out of my heart and in my room. the drowning has stopped. the tears and the blood has stopped. the breathing has stopped. it's all stopped.
it's over.
we're over.y
you left.
i'm gone.
the end
i thought i would just share some of my personal writing. i would like to let you know that i'm a bit rusty though because i haven't been writing for a while, and i wrote this about 1-2 weeks ago. so if this isn't good, i'm sorry. my greatest apologies for ruining your mind. lol.
have a wonderful day everyone :3

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

cars, time, and gurus in drag



oh my god. this car is amazing! it's a prius. well, a different prius than what's on the market at least. it has the same amount of room, but weighs 1/3 the size of the other prius and "aims to double its feul efficiency."

isn't that fricken awesome?!?!?!?! i think so.

but, of course, we all know that it's going to cost a leg and an arm to get one :( damn. oh well.


*sigh* if only if only, right?





new topic!!!! graduation :( today is the last day of school. i'm not graduating though. bleh. graduation was last friday. i'm so proud of all you guys who graduated!!!! hugh, jacob, jeremy, kyle, etc. etc. (i'm not a senior by the way. just in case you got that idea). next year will be my senior year. but i wont be graduating then either. i'm planning on doing a super senior year, just as hugh did, so that i can take some more ap classes and get more art and languages in. have some more helpfull-for-future-job classes.
i just realized that the clock on the wall has stopped. it makes me think of how life stops from time to time to let us think of what's happened, is happening, and what's going to happen. it's a blessing and a sin for such a thing to happen-time stopping that is. you can relive things in mind and smile at a couple of things. but you also are given the chance to cringe at the things that have passed you by, all the things that you could have done, and now, never will. you get a chance to fret about what you're going to do about your life in the upcoming days. it can be scary. but hey, if that happens, you can just slap yourself in the face and get yourself thinking of all the great times behind and ahead of you.
so yeah. that concludes another blog by the great and almighty ashlyn booth-stubbs. i hope you all have a marvolous day!
-ashlyn
oh, and p.s., i might blog later to tell you about my weird dream and the weird things that have happened lately. i mean, it's not like it's anything new for weird things to happen to me, but i just feel like sharing. so, yeah! see you later. maybe. ♥☺(/\) <-----my version of a peace sigh :3
and by the way. the clock is still stopped. when do you think my time for thinking will end?(day after day, alone on a hill, the man with the foolish grin is keeping perfectly still. LOOK AROUND 'ROUND 'ROUND 'ROUND 'ROUND. LOOK AROUND 'ROUND 'ROUND 'ROUND 'ROUND....yay beatles)

Tuesday, June 9, 2009

fer sure

you're like an indian summer in the middle of winter
like a
hard candy with a suRprise centeR

ahaha. i love that part of the song where she excentuates the r's. yay r's!

i also really like that first part: you're like an indian summer in the middle of winter.
i just really like that song in general.


so, tomorrow is the last day of school. sad sad day :(
i have finals in my 2nd, 4th, and 6th hour today. bleeeeehhhh. at least i only have a final in 5th hour tomorrow :) maybe i'll go in and take it early or something so that i can leave school early!!!! yeaaaaahhhh! lol.
my 2nd hour is french. i'm sure i'll do good on that.
4th hour is psychology......oh god i'm screwed. i think. i hope i do good >.<
6th hour is drama2, and i'm sure that i'll do great in that.
and finally, 5th hour is american literature. i just have to do a 25 minute write. nothing too bad.

hopefully i pass.....wish me luck!!!

so many people are leaveing me this summer D:
matt is leaving in 5 days and is going to be gone for 2 weeks.
bailey is leaving i don't know when, and it going to be gone for about 3.5 weeks.
gwen is going to california tomorrow and i'm not sure how long she's going to be gone.
nicole left yesterday i think it was and is going to be gone for 2 weeks.
and my friend alex usually comes to visit before school ends, leaves in august, but this summer, she decided to wait until july to come over here and is only staying for about 2 weeks. and chris isn't coming up until july too.
damn you people!

i went to my dousins baby shower sunday. over in post falls, idaho. it was pretty cool. i'm so happy for her. and she's lucky. her and the girl have been in a lot of danger. she's only 19 and it seems that the baby's going to be a premi. :( sad day. my cousine lookes so cute pregnant though :) she's such a beautiful person. good luck shawna!!!!!! i'm sure all will go well!

i have a sprite. yay sprite. so yummeh in my tummeh. especially 'cause i've been feeling sick :P stupid sickness. i've actually been sick a lot this year!




.....




WAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!
i don't want matt to be gone for 2 weeks :(((((((((((((((((( i know it's only 2 weeks, but it's going to go by sooooo slooooooow. i'm probably going to be stuck at home this WHOLE TIME! i don't want him to gooooo. meeeeehhhhhh. and we STILL haven't hung out for 3 weeks. and i haven't stayed at his house for almost over a month. and i miss that bed! sooooo fucking comfortable!!!!! too bad i can't just stay at his house while his gone ahahahaha.


desi....i love you. you make-eth me laugh. and giggle. you silly therian you XD



anyways. i'm gonna go now. have a wonderful day everyone!!!!!!!
bai bai


-ashlyn

Monday, June 1, 2009

pwacha to the lovers

sorry gaiz! i was just a tad bit busy this weekend and this morning.

saturday i woke up at about 5:13 and got ready for a yard sale that we had. i was at that until about 2:50, at which time i got ready for a birthday party i was not only attending as a guest, but also as part of the entertainment (it was my friend's sweet 16, las vegas style, and i dressed to that one song on "10 things i hate about you" that goes something like "i love you baaaaybay" and yeah. (don't worry, dressed the whole time)). i was at that party until about 10:20 or so. then, the next day, i slept in until about 12. took naps now and then, and went to bed about 8 so that i could get up at 5 am as i usually do, and get ready for school. woot woot!!!


some updates: new car!!!! i share it with my step dad, but hey, who cares, it's partially mine. and it's a pretty nice car too. she's a 2007 chevy cobalt. black. BEAUTIFUL! i have named her the black labrynth. pretty fucking awesome, right?

aaaaannnddd....what else....i hate being home! nothing new, but i'd thought i'd say it for the hell of it. time isn't the problem, it's my mom. shoot me now! bleh!!!....


damn...

i need to get going so that i can help my step dad with something. i'll be sure to update more later tonight and possibly post pictures of my modeling, drawing, the books i read, music i listen to, and stuff so you guys can see my hobbies in action.


much love. bai bai.

-ashlyn

Friday, May 29, 2009

bleeeehhhhhhh. i ist an monster!

soooooooooooooooo........











do you know what an otherkin is? i do :)
are you an otherkin?
i don't know. if you are.







last night was extremely tiring -.-
i went to the willie awards which are the william shakespear awards which are kind of like the tony awards...except better....because we're awesome like that. there were some amazing skits and the people who won awards surely deserved them. i was lucky enough to be accepted into the thespian honor society!!!!!! woooooot!!!!!!!!!! it's a national honor society i'm so excited to be a part of this amazing society in which i get to take part in some awesome drama stuff. :)))))))) yay!

what else to talk about......


i'm not sure.



oh! oh oh oh!!!!
....
never mind. i'll leave that for later tonight when i have more time. because, once again, i am running out of time in my zero hour class.






so yeah.

have a wonderful day everyone.
bai bai





-Ashlyn♥